Thursday, November 20, 2014

My Personal Internal Conflict

"Do you think your value to Him (Heavenly Father) changes based on how many followers you have on Instagram or Pinterest? Do you think He wants you to worry or get depressed if some un-friend or un-follow you on Facebook or Twitter?"

I loved President Uchtdorf's Conference address. As an author, I get caught up in appearances (as in showing up) and worry about numbers rising or dropping. I am so tired of that. It's the constant nagging of having to show presence so that my fans won't forget me.

My publisher had once said that I've already built my fanbase and the true ones will be there as time moves on. It's constant work on having to maintain as well as garner them--remember all successful relationships require nurturing. Human nature.

I have a lot of work ahead of me, but feeling pushed and pulled; plus, not having the means to back me up makes it even more frustrating and I almost feel at a loss. As of now, I feel it necessary to decide what is more important and go with that.

If keeping up doesn't feel like this, how do you manage to work in your favor without all the anxiety? Don't get me wrong, I enjoy networking, making friends and everything authorly, but it's been overwhelming lately. I'd love to hear your thoughts either way!

Monday, November 10, 2014

You Are Invited!

M.M. Roethig has invited me to be a part of a WoNdErFuL celebration of her book baby, Raine.

I will be hosting Monday, November 11th at 6:15-6:30. Join the fun for a chance to win cool stuff like Darkspell's ebook & to be turned into an Elemental (illustrations done by moi!)

See you there!

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

#NaNoWriMo Luck and Luvs!

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So it's that time of year when we gather around the fire in our cozy fuzzy warm socks staring listlessly into a pulsating screen. Does it mock the words that crowd our brains (or lack of) as we scramble to hit our 50k before our writing buddy does? Or maybe a past record?

Remember to take a well-deserved day off to refresh the voices in your head!

What is your NaNo project this year?

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

We all need Validation

I know we all say one time or another that we don't care what others think. Deep down in the recesses of our darkest corner, I feel we all care. We are validated whether by action, word, or deed--even with ourselves. I've found, lately, all work and no play makes Liz a dull girl! Dull inside and out. I need to balance my life with validation--reward myself in one way or another.

My child showed me this hypnotic video entitled "Validation". It's refreshing. :)

After viewing this, please watch this next one, because, as our hero in "Validation", we never know how we affect others...

 How do you reward yourself after hard work?

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

#IWSG My Breaking Point

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What do you do when the Book Distributor tells you you're book is NOT marketable?

Yep, that was me 3 years ago. I was thrilled when Darkspell released back in 2011. It is a YA Paranormal Romance and here is the blurb:

Winter Sky believes she is everything ordinary . . . until she is kissed by Alex Stormhold.
As seer of Stormhold Coven, Alex is sworn to be Winter’s protector against the darkness that hunts her. Violently thrust into a magickal realm she always thought impossible, she stumbles upon a disturbing secret of her own.

It had been doing very well! I broke well over even with the books I had ordered for signings and so forth, but I thought how much better it would be if I ran it over to the local distributor and get him to distribute my books throughout the state? Yes, I came from a very small publisher and I was left to my own devices as any indie author is.

So I dropped my book off and when I returned a few weeks later, he told me that my book was NOT marketable. What? Oh, I held myself up by a sheer will of power and smiled and nodded as he spoke while trembling and screaming and crying inside.

He told me the market is saturated with fantasy and I need to get realistic fiction out and to change Darkspell's cover.

Dread clutched me and I thought, "write realistic fiction?" I'm a fantasy writer! I write about elves, witches, vampires, magic and dwarves and talking falcons and Greek gods! How in the world will I ever come up with something that has nothing to do with any of these things?

Needless to say, I lost my writerly soul for a loooong time. I cried and cried, wondering how I would do what he said and how in the world my book wouldn't be marketable.

After about a week of mulling over my options (though it took years to put myself back together)--and since writing is my first love, I'd never give up. I had seriously questioned if I should even keep up with my writing career because of the devastation, but after taking it to the Lord and being told to keep on going, I tried my hand in realistic fiction

Guess what? I am quite surprised that I have the ability to write outside of fantasy!

I've written 3 realistic fiction books and have been inspired to write even more--though I have written several  fantasy as well. It was one of the harshest ways to change, I am grateful to him because if he hadn't had broken me down, I would not have written the great books I have now.

Have you had any broken moments that changed your direction?